A completely different life.

My last post was in April of 2006. I logged in to my Blogger account because I have a blog for the boys, and wanted to start keeping a blog for them again. I have pictures of them on Facebook (I just recently deleted my MySpace account, which I will probably go into later). Then suddenly I was reminded- I didn't just have a blog for Felix when he was younger, and a combined blog once Lars was born... I also had a pregnancy blog, and a blog just for myself. A flood of memories came back to me.

Thinking back on my marriage and my relationship with Al, sometimes its difficult for me to understand how I could have ever been in love with him, married him and had two kids with him. I really did think we were going to be together forever. Now when I look at him, I see a man who played a large role in taking my life, and everything I knew, away from me. I know that pointing fingers does no good, and I try not to hold onto resentment. But most of the time, when I look at him, I see a man who is no longer even physically attractive, let alone intelligent, caring, or anything else remotely redeeming.

Lars is climbing on my lap. Its the first weekend the boys are spending the night at my new house. I will write more later. We don't get a lot of time together